A Long Time Coming

I've decided to bite the bullet.

For years, G and I have gone back and forth about taking the GRE.  I have a Master's in Education, but I was not required to take the GRE as part of the admissions requirements because of how high my undergrad GPA was, and how my undergrad education classes "fed into" the grad program.

G and I have often debated going back to school in order to prepare ourselves to eventually change career paths.  Let's face it: I'm not going to be a manager in an extremely technical environment forever.  But every time I think of "the next thing" my mind goes blank, or if it might involve more education, I curl up into a ball and reach for the cheese dip.

But now I'm biting the bullet.  I signed up for two GRE exams in late summer, and I also signed up for a series of preparatory classes and sessions throughout June/July.

This is how I feel about it:

QUANTITATIVE REASONING!!!  AS IF I CAN UNDERSTAND THAT!!

I haven't taken a standardized test in I don't even know how long.  And this one involves math.  Two whole sections of it.  There's absolutely no hope for me.  (Jesus is nodding.  He knows.)  The fact that math stands between me and a program I'm perfectly capable of doing is just proof that we live in a fallen world.  But it is what it is.

Don't even get G started on the ridiculousness of it all.  He says,

GRE:  Gratuitously Redundant Exam.

The GRE does not measure how intelligent you are, or indicate how well you will do in post-graduate education or the work force.  The GRE measures how well you do on the GRE.  A test for the sole purpose of taking a test?  That's like my worst nightmare!  No chance to explain answers or rationalize or give examples or make a case for the right answer?  Kill me now.  MATH?  Yeah, kill me now.

Today is going to be a mile marker for a few reasons.  We find out a couple of significant things about the house purchase that could either move the whole thing along or stop it in its tracks.  I'm also meeting with a graduate advisor for an MA in English program.  Today could bring a whole lotta change, or it could bring a whole lotta nothing.

Please start regular prayer and fasting for me.  Thanks.